I wasn’t going to do one of these reflection posts. I saw and read every one else’s and just didn’t want to do one. I didn’t feel like going back through the 261 published posts and recapping what an awesome blogging year 2013 was for me. Although it was a great year for me in general, for many different reasons…I just didn’t feel like recapping it. Its almost like that term paper that you know you have to write, but don’t know where to start to so you wait till the last minute and burn the midnight oil getting it done. Recapping 2013 was gonna take work, so much has happened, my brain is just too full.
The snippets of time I get when my son is sleeping allows we to post most of my posts, but not one like this one. I can’t focus, family just left, and Hubs is off today. As I sit here and write this post, while my son sleeps and Hubs is getting ready to go work out, I’m still overwhelmed and don’t know where to start. I’m a private girl, ironic huh, since I blog. I love to share, more verbally though than physically. I’m learning to be more open. If I have one blogging goal for 2014, its to share more about myself on my blog. Post more pictures, talk more about myself and everyday life, show and tell you what I’m really going through in my life right now. I think a lot of the reason I’m like that is because of my military career. There is certain information I can’t share, don’t want to share, and shouldn’t share. One day though, I will share it. At least what I can.
For now, I’ll tell you that I’m transitioning into a new role: A Mom. No not a working mom, or a military mom, but just a mom. With that I’ll be a SAHM, yep that means no more military, no more work outside the home, and no more of my own income (except the pennies I receive from my blogging endeavors). I’ve shared here and there that after I had my son, that’d I be at home with him full time. However, I never touched completely on the fact that I’d no longer have my career in doing so. It’s a beyond than worthy sacrifice. One to be honest I don’t have a lot of control over. My time serving our nation is coming to an end soon, and its hard. I’m tearing up as I write this, so I’ll change the subject. I promise, I’ll share my story one day, all the good and bads (more bads than goods).
Yes, 2013 was a wonderful year, in part because I moved back home (even though we’re still in the process of moving), which is something hubs and I really wanted to do. We want to raise our son close to family and in our beloved South. Hubs got a new job, so I go from being a military spouse, or rather a dual military household, to being a cops wife. It’s a role I never saw myself in, and is scary. More on that later though! The most wonderful thing that happened for me in 2013 was the birth of my son. My heart is so full of love and brain already so full of memories (and so is my phone and computer with pictures) that its hard for me to organize my thoughts on motherhood and having a child a lot of the times. That’s another goal of mines in 2014, get a grasp of this thing called motherhood.
So even though this is the post that I didn’t want to write, I’m glad I did. It was somewhat cathartic, which with it being the first day of a year, is exactly what I needed to do. Sometimes its not about what we want to do, but what we need to do.
Again, Happy 2014! Here’s to a great year a head of all of us!