It hits you like a Mac truck…out of nowhere. One minute everything is fine and dandy, and the next you feel the lowest of low. Lately, I’ve had my ups and downs, fortunately more ups than downs, but funny how the downs tend to stick with you a little longer. My agendas been full, life’s been busy, and all through it I’ve been trying to find my way and do my best. I don’t know where to go or what to do, but all I know is to keep pushing. I need to get more in touch with my spiritual side, because when all else fails..and at some it does, that’s all I have to fall back on. I hate admitting that I’m struggling, that I’m stuck, that I’m out of ideas, and that I’m in a creative block on all cylinders. I’m going through the motions, but I don’t feel there. I feel like everyone around me has found themselves, and that I still don’t know who I am. I’m not open enough, raw enough and maybe that’s very apparent. I don’t know how to change it. Is it a lack of confidence? Pessimism? Or just plain out discomfort? I don’t know, but what I do know is that its all very discouraging.
Its easy to take the short road to quitting, sit back and sip some tea. Too easy! I can’t, I just can’t! I can’t quit, I’ve never been one to take the easy way out. I have to keep challenging myself, pushing myself to get to the next level and be the best me! The only way I’m going to find myself is to keep pushing myself to be better, because I know the found me, is a better me. Its give me anxiety, jacks with my self-confidence, and makes me feel insecure. So negative right? Yes, by default its my MO. I wish it wasn’t, but I’m sure on some level it serves me well and right.
Folding under pressure has never been me. I’ve never let anyone bully or push me to back down or change. I have to dig deep, way deep and pull out everything that is me. No one said it would be easy, but they also didn’t say it wasn’t possible. Faith gives me that! I know that when we face difficulty, its not always because we’re doing something wrong, but because we’re doing something right.
Just when you’re on the brink of something amazing, you experience adversity on some level. It never fails. I know I’m destined for bigger things, and I have my adversaries to thank. Both the ones on my conscious and the physical ones. They push me to be even better. I’m better because I know something better, something great is right around the corner. Call this a catharsis in a way, but it truly is. My heart, my spirit, my psyche all know what maybe my present mind doesn’t know. That – All Is Well. Discouragement will not over take my spirit, but it will make me stronger, better, and more resilient. Will it happen overnight, no – I wish! However, as long as I know it will happen – All Is Well!
If you’re ever feeling discouraged, tell yourself all is well, because it really is. You can’t go anywhere from where you’re at, but up! You can get better, be better, and do better, as long as that is where your heart is. So put your heart in it, and know truly that – All Is Well. Again, because it really is!